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and there was nothing.
nothing left in the end.


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zishing
04-12-1992
no preferences
nothing particular.
the place people come to for help.
and that's about it.


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Andy
Baka-Tsuki
Caroline
ChinHian
Dom
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Kee
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Max
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(Friday, August 10, 2007/8:18 AM)

Organise
Great! Super long post to make. >.>

Wednesday:
(plus its affiliating thursday night)
Great, arrive at school.
We do drills. <.<
We do more drills.
More drills. Man. =.=
Drills finish. We go for dinner. Hor fun.
Finish dinner, go back to bunk (sec 1 class). I take the extra hor fun up.
In bunk, I jack up the tv. CSI yay.
CSI finish. It's 11. Go sleep.
Cannot sleep, everyone is bloody making noise.
Look at the National Flag. There's 2. >.>
Take 1 down and stare at it. Sasha takes it and starts posing with it 70% nude.
KT walks in when he's posing. =O
Finish posing, try to sleep.
They start grabbing leftover hor fun and eating. ><
Neil comes in, get pumped and lecture for making so much noise.
Cliff tries pouring water on Nick Chan. It ends up on me. =.=
Cannot sleep, so frigging cold and my sleeping bag is wet, so is half my body. ><
2:45am comes, "wake up".
Change and fall in.
Board bus.
Eat on bus.
Alight.
Draw rifle.
Wei En has a retaining pin lost. Look for it.
Cannot find. Board bus.
Get to stadium. Get some sleep (at least).
Damn thirsty. Go drink water from a tap.
More drills. More drills. More drills.
Form up at line.
Do we are supposed to do. March. =.=
March nicely ends up on the correct formation.
Take dressing. Finish.
Salute for Director of Board of Governors. <.< Finish.
Salute for Guest of Honour. Finish.
Salute for National Anthem. I shouted through it.
Wait for command to take pledge. Wait. Wait.
Command given. =.= Finish.
Tiam for inspection. Finish.
Sing School Anthem (I think).
Listen to National Day message. Surprisingly, it wasn't too long.
Listen to recollections. It wasn't long either.
Marchpast. It owned. Finish.
March out of stadium. Wait for bus.
Wait. Wait. ><
Bus comes. Board bus.
Arrive at HQ. Return rifle. Sea comes late so must wait again.
Board bus. Return to school.
Great, sec 1s who had class came in and messed the whole place up. People had money stolen, ipod stolen. Everything. I had my sleeping bag in the dustbin with last night's hor fun. Take 1 hour to figure everything out and turn buttons etc. in.
Neil praises us. Half-praises. Go home. After that, I slept the rest of the day.

Yesterday:
Stupid me.
At 12:30 I went to Fort Canning.
I arrived at Fort Canning at 12:56.
And sitting on the drain I see Paki and gang.
So I join them.
And after 1 hour, we get to go in.
I wandered about for half an hour.
Glanced and saw (blank).
The show started at 2:30.
Sat down somewhere at the back to watch The Great Spy Experiment.
They finished playing. It was about 3.
Wandered around.
3:30. One Buck Short.
4. They finished playing.
Apparently it took as long as the band to perform as it was to set up the stage for the next one.
4:30. Crowned King. I just happened to see _____ and her friends, so I just stood there near the front and watched. The band or her I can't remember.
5:30. Cobra Starship. I was still at the back doing nothing while Paki was in front.
6:30 The Academy Is. I went in front this time cause' I met up with Paki again. While they jumped I just stood there. They were carrying someone and he hit me in the head. And in turn my head hit Kane's. Then they moshed.
7:30 Gym Class Heroes. I sing the only song I knew and that was it. Girls in front wasted 1.5litres of water on their hair.
8:30 Avenged Sevenfold. I fell back to my original back seat and closed my eyes while the band played. Practically everyone was on their feet and in front just to watch them.
And then my mind started to wander.
I worried.
They kept calling for the crowd to move a few steps back so the people in front wouldn't get crushed.
More drumming.
I dreamt of the lead singer actually being able to see the lone idiot sitting at a cupola just stoning.
I dreamt that he'd ask me what was happening. Why I was just sitting down there.
I dreamt that I'd ask him a question.
"You're so popular that you draw basically everyone to you. So why can't I get the one I want? Just one?"
It just seemed that.
Everything was against me.
I shouldn't have came to this concert.
It was like internal war.
Amidst my own conscience.
I kept thinking of grabbing her hand and pulling her away.
And asking her why she acted like that.
But something inside told me.
I was selfish.
All I cared for was my own feelings.
Even worrying was just so that I could see her.
What a fool.
So I got up.
And went to see what I could do with my spare dollar of food coupon.
Then I heard someone call my name.
Turned around.
And then I saw her. She smiled at me.
Dumbstruck.
Reflex wove back.
Turned back.
Sighed silently in relief,
And thanked whoever might have been out there watching over Fort Canning.
That she was safe and sound.

The rest of that day was pretty mediocre.
Met up with Paki. We left early, at 11, the time it was supposed to finish.
He wanted to see MXPX.
I thought I'd seen enough.
Paki got the drumstick off The Great Spy Experiment.
Looked cool, but splintered.
Went to KFC.
Ate.
Took train home.
And slept.

I dreamt of alot of things through the night.
Mostly to do with her.
But one thing I can definitely remember.
Was when the lead singer of Avenged Sevenfold.
Gave me his answer.

"See kid."
"Sometimes it's not about getting what you want."
"It's about making sure that someone is happy."
"You know, full of joy and spunk."
"That's what it's all about."
"You give, and you expect nothing back."
"But you do get something back."
"And that smile is your miracle."
"You've already won your battle, kid."
"Now go out there and live life like you always did."

I cried shortly after.